i seriously have alot to say to u.
this past 4 months that i have not contact u.
the feeling is not good.
its freaking unbearable.
i thought of just letting go once and for all.
and hoping this will be the better way for the both of us.
and time will do its job by making me forget u.
but i was wrong.
everytime i tell myself that i dont love u anymore.
are just words to console myself.
to make myself feel better.
i wanted to contact u.
but i lack the courage to do it.
i fear that u will hate me after the breakup.
i fear facing u after doing this kind of shit to cause so much pain and disappointment to u.
i really regret taking the easy way out.
i thought breaking up is the best choice for us.
but i was wrong.
we are together for nearly 3 years.
3 years of relationship not say 3-4 months forget jiu can forget.
i know better saying all this now.
u will be thinking wtf are u trying to tell me?
are u trying to tell me u love me?
after 4 months of no contact?
u come back and tell me that u love me.
are u trying to kid me?
i dont need u to accept me now.
i just hope that i can have a 2nd chance..
i dont want myself to regret.
regret losing the girl i love so much.
i am sorry for making this selfish decision.
i am sorry for causing u so much pain and disappointment.
i am sorry...