its been 24 days since we break up.
i try to keep myself occupied so that i wont think of her.
yet i still think of her every night.
i just cant get her off my mind.
the pain of missing her yet cant get to see her is so unbearable.
i try to keep this pain to myself but i cant.
its too much for me to keep..
i been asking myself this question every night before i sleep.
is there a chance that i can get back with her?
every night. without fail i think about it...
even if we get back together.
will things still be the same like last time.
will our love still be as strong as last time?
or its just like wad she say.
we are just too used to being together with each other?
i am not the same like last time anymore.
on the day which we break up.
i went down to buy a pack of ciggs to smoke.
why am i doing this?
to destress?
because i am feeling down?
or just a excuse for me to go back to my smoking days..
i know she hate people who smokes.
but does it matter now?
she always say that i am getting on with life and stuff like this.
but wad does she know?
i look like a piece of shit now.
from the post in her blog.
its seems like she is getting on with her life now rather than me getting on with mine.
she still have her friends to back her up.
wad about me?
who do i have?
my sec sch buddies are gone.
why gone? because i spend too much time with her.
THATS THEIR REASON OF LEAVING ME. 4 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP.
so much for that.
my ite buddies are here. but we are not close till i can call them good friends.
how about jasmine, kelvin and xiaohui?
it seems like whenever i have problems with my r/s then i meet up with them.
wad do i treat them as?
wad about my my current poly frens?
yea i do talk to them. but how much do they know about me?
i have no one.
i am just a pathetic piece of shit.
all i have left are just pictures of me and her to look back.
someone just kill me.
fuck all this shit that is revolving around me.